Its a very strange feeling to look at yourself and not understand.
To not understand why you are up until the sun rises with your mind racing faster than you can process all the thoughts.
To not understand why your spirit is so restless and your heart cant get its fill.
To not understand why you have everything and feel like you have nothing.
With the days last cigarette you ponder on these things and your mind only wanders like it always does and you leave with more questions than answers.
A very strange feeling indeed.